Something in between

It's practically three months now since I finished SPM. More than that I think. Life has been pretty dull lately. The only thing in my mind now is studies. Where to go next. I can't believe I've been bugging by this for so long and yet I'm still uncertain of where to go next. It's absolutely two choices ONLY.
It's either Form 6 or Matrix. Frankly speaking, both of them look pretty much the same for me.

Matrix: I'll finish it faster I think. But to finish all of that in one year? I'm not capable in doing it I think. I've stop learning for almost three months, I don't even know how to start already. But em, think of its brighter sight, I don't have to stuck in high school anymore, and I can escape those co-curriculum. So, it's a 50% 50%.

Form 6: Gosh, Orientation week and stuffs. I have to work hard all over again to gain those freaking co-cu marks? I don't know if I can take it anymore. But I was thinking, if I were to go
Form 6, I'll go to Arts class since I'm not really going to do something with science after I graduate. Perhaps, that makes things easier? Again, it's a 50% 50%.

This is what people called dilemma. It doesn't feel good. Especially, when you feel like you're going it by yourself, it kinda upset me a little. But, they say go with the flow, no matter how worry you are, things still going to be settled down. I guess I just have to learn to accept and let things go naturally :)

X,
Sha

Dear John

Recently, I'm obsessed with this book/movie 'Dear John'. I watched the trailer, haven't read the book, haven't watched the movie yet. This is the second book I'm obsessed with after the 'Time Traveler's Wife'. Some of the reviews of this movie is not that good, compared to the book, but em, I'll still go for it.
'Dear John' is a novel written by Nicholas Sparks(Author of the Notebook) few years back. It's such a shame that I only know its existence weeks ago. Still trying to find the book before I watch the movie. The movie starring: Channing Tatum and Amanda Seyfried.
Here is the synopsis, I think you'll like it, if you like romance:

Director Lasse Hallström and screenwriter Jamie Linden collaborate to adapt author Nicholas Sparks' novel about a young soldier who falls for an idealistic college girl. Savannah Curtis (Amanda Seyfried) was on spring break when she first met John Tyree (Channing Tatum), who was home on temporary leave. For the smitten soldier it was practically love at first sight. Over the course of the next seven years, when each deployment seemed more treacherous than the last, the love letters that Savannah sent to John were one of the only things that kept him going. However, those loving and heartfelt correspondences would ultimately yield consequences that neither the brave soldier nor his one true love could have ever foreseen. ~ Jason Buchanan





Have fun! Love,
Sha

A little updates

It's Friday afternoon. Not sure what to do, so I stopped by here, and maybe write something down. I'm not sure what is going to turn out, but em, hopefully, something good. Have been here for a couple of times. But em, nothing seems to be written down here. It always started with a few words but ended up with the keypad stated there' backspace'. Words don't seem to be written out from me lately. Lack of inspirations I think. Sigh. There's so many things in my mind, but em, I don't know how to express them in words. Writing without inspirations is really a pain. *I'm having hard time to continue here* Maybe it's because I don't have much going on lately, that's way words don't seem to be uttered out.

I'm longing for some time for my own lately. I don't feel like picking up calls, talk, or even laugh. Believe me, laughing can be very tiring if you laugh like I always do. Sigh. I went out to shopping malls for these few days. Trying to find a pendant. Not just any pendant. But em, it's the shape of a snowflake. I want it to be in crystal form or made from diamond. Or something very ancient yet elegant looking one. When the sunlight penetrates through it, then it shines, so brightly. Aww, that'll be really nice. But em, it's not that easy to find it over here, not a nice one I mean. I did see one in MP, but it's made from glass I think, it was not bad, but em, a little bit too small. I want a bigger one, and it'll be hanging on my neck 24/7. I don't know why, but I've always wanted a snowflake pendant. Uh. It's so true, a longer period of time is needed to get a good stuff.*Still, I can't get a nice one yet*










That's all for today, see ya next time.
Sha

Touchie Touchy

This post is totally inspired by someone I love dearly.
It's something that you said or wrote touched me, tremendously.
This post may be short or long, depends on how you look at it.

Something happened, things that need you to get involved with. It's not because you get involved that touched me. It's the way you solve that makes my heart beats. It's pretty shocking how well you know me despite I've been a total myth and keeping stuffs to myself. I've not been talking much about myself especially emotionally. I don't like to keep it open and talk all about it unless it's necessary. Well, sometimes you like to make fun of me especially about my 'love life'. But em, I'm not a big fan of it. I've always been a rigid and conservative minded kind of girl. Indeed, it's annoying when you do so. As time goes by, it kinda build up a barrier in me, in my heart and mind. That definitely mould me into someone that don't speak much about what I really feel.

And as for relationship, I've never get involve in it so far. Getting into a relationship is pretty common for nowadays teens. But nah, again, I'm not a huge fan of it. I've always have a thought that getting involve in a relationship it needs commitment. It ain't easy to have one. It's like getting in a relationship, you are tied up. It just doesn't seem right for me now. Seeing people around me getting in and falling out of love just makes me hold on on my thought firmly.

And em, this is pretty much I want to tell. Poor thing, I've born for 17 years, and yet you know so little about me (emotionally). *Laugh Out Loud* It's always great to have someone like you to take care of my problems. I'm truly glad and blessed to have you in my life. Love you.

P/s: You. yes you. Only get emo with me through electrical devices, not personally. You know how shy I'll be =P *Laugh Out Loud* Well, you know, after all, I'm not ready to get rid of my barriers yet. But em it's just the matter of time. The time will come :)

06/01/10 outing

Finally, after being caged in house for a few weeks we went for a movie yesterday. (Exciting) Boon Xian came with his Kancil and fetch Carine, Gun, Dieh, and me. We went McDonald to take some bites before the movie starts.

Avatar is so so nice!!! Those Na'vi are so BLUISH and HUGE!!! Of course, Jake Sully is kinda cute. This movie is a little touching. This movie kinda reminds us of what is going around this world. Human beings tend to destroy other habitats or what so ever to get money and luxuries. People are killing mother nature blindly. People has lost themselves, their inner self in this materialistic world. Human beings can be so cruel and shallow-minded.

Moral Values: Stop killing blindly(human/animals/trees..)
Remember, What goes around comes around

So, I think this movie deserves 9.5.

Later, we went to play Basketball and Paired Hockey Match at Jusco. I was so nice and exciting!!! Of course Gun scored the highest among us. And so, this fun outing ends here!! Pointer for the day 9.5!

Looking forward for another outing:
Shasha

I'm Yours

I'm Yours
~Beautiful song by The Script~

You touch these tired eyes of mine
And map my face out line by line
And somehow growing old feels fine
I listen close for I'm not smart
You wrap you thoughts in works of art
And they're hanging on the walls of my heart

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

You heeled these scars over time
Embraced my soul
You loved my mind
You're the only angel in my life
The day news came my best friend died
My knees went week and you saw me cry
Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
And though I may not look like much
I'm yours
And though my edges may be rough
And never feel I'm quite enough
It may not seem like very much
But I'm yours

I may not have the softest touch
I may not say the words as such
I know I don't fit in that much
But I'm yours

17th now!!!

I've just turned 17th yesterday. Which means I'm getting older. *Sigh*Received a lot of wishes from friends and families through call, sms and facebook.( Thank you so so much)
Hmm, 17th now. Which means I'm grown up, gotta do and learn more things and ready to take responsibilities by myself. Going to take driving license afterwards. That's so much to do when you turned into 17th!! Anway, welcome to 17th!!!


Here's some picture:

It's a nice box for cake =p

Birthday/X'mas cake? lol..

I had a cake like this when I was 5/6 years old.

*Love him*

*Love Her*

*Love Her*

*Love both of them muchie muchie*

*Love them all*

That's all for today.
Have a nice day to all..
Love,
Shasha