Semi-Freshy Back in School

Finally, I received the letter to go back to school earlier than everyone expected. It's a good thing though. And so, I went to school on the the 13th of May. School was ok, but I'm not gonna deny that wearing school uniform is HOT!! Oh My God, and the weather is so terrible. It's simply annoying.

I have to stay in Bio 2 for a while until the Ministry of Education settle everything. Started our lesson today. Chemistry is not bad, Mr. Raja explained quite a lot of stuffs. Then, I get to know this Chinese guy, Elvis. And had a little conversation with Ting Tao. Well, they are both quite friendly. Get to know this Indian girl also, her name is Lalitha. She's pretty quiet and pay 100% when Mr. Raja is teaching.

En. Hussin gave us an essay to do. Well, it was ok. Have to copy all those information like so fast. Had to stay back for a little while because I didn't get to finish copy all it. It is sad, I mean, no one waits for you. Then you alone have to rush, pack, and walk all alone in the corridor.

Things are different now. I no longer have the friend to go to toilet with me every 35 minutes. I no longer have friends waiting for me in the Dewan-Terbuka. I waited, but they weren't there. They waited, but I wasn't there. It's hard to keep up when you're on your own and different way. It's just different. Now, we're supposed to wait at the tennis court before class starts. Nothing is the same anymore. Life is going to get very busy soon, ah, very tired. Haven't get used to it yet. Hope everything will be just fine.

Oh, En. Ramli is such a great counselor. He reads me. He gets me. Oh my god, I think I should go more for this kind of session. lol. At least I get to understand myself better. I think from him I know what I want for my future. I think law is no longer my field. Well, can't wait for more counseling programs!! I'm not sure whether we need to book or something. But, counseling is fun, good for your mind and soul. lol.

X,
Sha

Never Back Down

It's a gloomy Wednesday morning for me. Went to school to see Mr. Ong. Sigh. I can't return to school until the early of June. Oh my.Didn't know that it could be so troublesome. There's nothing much I can do but wait. This feeling is kinda odd. It's like you're not being accepted. I shouldn't have applied for Matrix, should I? So, I have to home-study for this moment. Oh gosh, this is simply ridiculous. I don't even know what to feel right now.

Hmm, what's the feeling of going to school as a new student? With the the students staring at you like a total freak. No, I don't like it. I like the usual way. Go to school in a group, register, and life goes on. I guess it's going to be different, very different this year.

Cut my hair just now. It's short, real short. Learning to live with it. I chose comfort over cuteness in long hair. lol. It's all about choices. I've made mine. So, move on :)

-I'm too young to die if you're going to quit me-

X,
Sha

Under One Roof

Staying up late tonight. Dad got to work at 2 am. He's sleeping now, so, it's my duty to wake him up at 1.30am. Again, silence during the night. It feels really good. Currently listening to Two is Better than One and chatting with Leong.

Had dinner with Melvin and Leong just now at pizza hut. That explains this post's title . lol. It was fun, talked a little about this and that. Were cracking our brains to order what to eat. We finally ended up with Pizza Hut's latest pizza, fish something something. We didn't hang out long, it was around 1 1/2 to 2 hours. But it's fun though. Talked about craps. Checking on each other new phones. Yea, it was fun.

Yea. It's something like that I'm looking forward after we go our separate ways. Just a simple dinner and keeping one another updated about our plans in life. We made so many promises, but not much is kept. I mean, it's not easy to keep that all. So, a simple breakfast, brunch, lunch, dinner, whatever you call, it's enough.

If we manage to do that, I'm happy. It's a blue-sky-filled-with-colourful-balloons kind of happiness.

It's a happiness I found from you :)

-White Horse-

X,
Sha

A Night out

It's 2nd of May. Yea. Time flies. One more week I'll be back to school and there we go again, a normal-uniform-high-school-student =p I'll know where they locate me by tomorrow. I hope they'll let me stay in Munshi. I don't want to drive so far everyday. Sigh.

Went to Jacklyn and Sharon's house last night. It was ok. Met some friends and well, chat a little. Saw Ms.Lim, Ms. Goh and Mr. Khoo too last night. And wow, news spread fast and wide. lol. I'm cool with that though. Those teachers are great, they concern about their students.

While I was at their house, Aaron came over and discussed something with my dad. But didn't get to meet him. Maybe will arrange a yamcha 'session' on Wednesday before school re-open. Then when for lamb chop for supple with mom and dad =p

Then today I drove to Giant with mom and dad to buy cooking oil and stuffs. Have been watching Fast and Furious for 3 times this week =p That movie made me speed a little on the road and get scolded. Blame Vin Diesel. lol.

Alright, that's all for today. Will keep you posted for more!

-Listening to Who I am- Nick Jonas-

X,
Sha

遇到

1、遇到你真的爱的人时，要努力争取和他相伴一生的机会！ 因为当他离去时，一切都来不及了！

2、遇到可相信的朋友时，要好好和他相处下去，因为在人的一 生中，可遇到的自己真的不易！

3、遇到人生中的贵人时，要记得好好感激，因为他是你人生的 转折点！

4、遇到曾经爱过的人，记得微笑向他感激因为他是让你更懂爱 的人！

5、遇到曾经恨过的人时，要微笑向他打招呼，因为他让你更加 坚强！

6、遇到曾经背叛你的人时，要跟他好好聊一聊，因为若不是 他，今天你不会懂这世界！

7、遇到曾经偷偷喜欢的人时，要祝他幸福哦！因为你喜欢他 时，不是希望他幸福快乐吗？

8、遇到匆匆离开你人生的人时，要谢谢他走过你的人生，因为 他是你精彩回忆的一部分！

9、遇到曾经和你有误会的人时，要趁现在解清误会，因为你可 能只有这一次机会解释清楚！

10、遇到现在和相伴一生的人，要百分百感谢他爱你，因为你 们现在都得到幸福和真爱。

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Voices for the souls

Music is my life.
When you're down, feel like there's no one you can talk to,
You turn to music,
They heal you :)

When you're happy,
You listen to the particular songs.

Certain music bring memories,
They bring you back to memory land.

Music never failed to please me.

Chris Daughtry, his music and songs never failed to impress me. Seeing a big guy singing songs like that with a little rock elements? I simply love his music!!!

David Archuleta, I love his voice, he jumps up and down when he's singing. Awesome songs. Forever in love =p

Oliver James, I only heard of his Long Time Coming and Greatest Story Ever Told. But two is enough to impress me. Greatest Story Ever Told is a great wedding song=p
Melvin said it's very slow, but his dad likes it :) Good taste!

Adam Lambert, used to hate him. But his songs--well, not bad. Loving his fringe. I like this guy liner =p

Michael Buble, Awesome awesome songs from him. Brilliant!!

There's still a lot more, maybe next time :0

X,
Sha

A Doubtful Thought

Lisa said it's time to start a new chapter. Yes, indeed. I guess we have all come to a point where we need to make a decision. It's either a huge transformation or a drastic change. Not much different between the two actually.

I applied for The Star scholarship a month ago. I wasn't serious at the time. Just playing around. Who knows, I've been short-listed for interview. My first reaction was of course, excited. I get to fly to Sarawak if I'm lucky. Then mom and I spent the next two days to find the perfect formal outfit. Finally, we have found one. It's a long sleeves shirt and a black skirt. Mom lent me her white heels :) It was freaking fun. We look into the mirror, wow, I seriously have the lawyer look. lol. I was stunned with the lawyer-look. Of course, I indulged in it :)

I spent the next few days doing some research in the net and made some phone calls. I realised it wasn't what I thought it is. It's actually way tougher than I imagined. It's a heck long of journey, process, whatever you call. All of a sudden, I wasn't gay about the interview neither do taking law.

I wore the very same outfit, and tried to get opinion from papa. He gave me 7.5 marks out of 10. Fair enough for me. Then, I was standing in front of mirror, right before the second I remove my shirt, my own eyes caught me. I stare right back into my own eyes and gave myself a cynic smile. 'Who am I kidding'?

Right at the moment, I felt like I've been forced to marry a guy that I don't love. Shot, right away, I know something wrong.

For now, I'm not sure I want it 100%, perhaps it takes time for my case. But I'll definitely think deep about it. The interview? What the hell, I'll go, I'll decide. But not instantly. Because I know whatever decision I make, I'll always have my loved ones back me up. So, I'm not afraid. I need to be exposed. And that's what I'll do :)

I hope when I look back into the mirror, I'll still see the very same me, but with a HAPPY smile :) Then, I know I'm doing fine.

X,
Sha