Aww. It has been raining for the whole day. Did I get the mushy feeling again? Well, not really, maybe just a little =)
Recently, life is all about schools, sports activities, stay back, ah, you name it. And I thought lower 6 was busy. Have been devoting and revolving myself in these few things. It's true, I hardly have time to breathe! It's good though to have this rainy day when you're so busy. It sort of calm you a little.
Well, since school started, everything has changed. Changed rapidly and drastically. Jules has left. He has choosen to continue his journey there, I'm happy for him, I can sense that that's what he really wants to do =)Hmm, as for me, I'm still the same, perhaps add on some weight, and get chubb-ier! Everyone is pinching my cheeks now =p
Just in these one month time, someone I know has lost both of her parents. Owh, this definitely gives me something to think about. Life is always too short, too short to love, too short to know, and to short to care. Yesh, I have been repeating this to myself over and over again. Yet, sometimes, I still being a little ungrateful. I know, sooner or later, we're leaving this world, to the other side. It's just the matter of time. Someone told me before, death is not terrifying, it's just sad. Indeed, it's true.
That is why everytime I get upset, I'll get over it in times. It's because I know, life is too short to regret. I've choosen to embrace things with wide opened heart and arms now, because I know I only live once. I've choosen to love others too. That definitely includes family and friends. Somehow, I have built up a wall in my heart, a barrier. Sometimes, I'm afraid of that kind of lovey dovey feeling. It's like there's a great force of energy holding me back from feeling that way, the feeling of guilt? I don't know, am I afraid or it's still new for me. It's strange. I want to fall head over heels, but I just couldn't. I wouldn't let myself to do that, my heart doesn't allow me either.
Despite so, I'm still a firm holder of whatever meant to happen, it happens. When the time is right, it comes. I don't have to figure it out. I don't have to expect it, I don't have to chase for it. It's because, when the time comes, that's it. Your heart will be defeated and conquered by LOVE. I know, that's true. I know someone will help you to notice the rainbow after the rain, someone will guide you to think outside the box and someone will be waiting for you with a umbrella in the heavy down pouring rain. It's the kind of LOVE that'll stop you from feeling odd to be in love =)
Love,
Sha
