17th now!!!

I've just turned 17th yesterday. Which means I'm getting older. *Sigh*Received a lot of wishes from friends and families through call, sms and facebook.( Thank you so so much)
Hmm, 17th now. Which means I'm grown up, gotta do and learn more things and ready to take responsibilities by myself. Going to take driving license afterwards. That's so much to do when you turned into 17th!! Anway, welcome to 17th!!!


Here's some picture:

It's a nice box for cake =p

Birthday/X'mas cake? lol..

I had a cake like this when I was 5/6 years old.

*Love him*

*Love Her*

*Love Her*

*Love both of them muchie muchie*

*Love them all*

That's all for today.
Have a nice day to all..
Love,
Shasha

Flame of Forest

This is a little something that I've promised to myself to search after exam. Couldn't remember whether Ms. Toh or Mr. Charlie told us about this 'Flame of forest'. It really caught my attention when he/she talked about it! Indeed, it's nice. However, the seeds are poisonous. So, beware of it. *Laugh Out Loud*Here goes the pictures of the 'Flame of Forest'.













That's all for today!! Have a nice day:)

Hugs:
Shasha

O.o

I'm not good in keeping in touch .
At the same time, I don't want to lose it all.
I hate when friendship alters into something else.
I wish I'll be better in doing this.
I wish,
I wish..

This is it

This post is entitled 'This is it'. It's because, this is the moment, this is the time, this is it.
Oh mi gosh. It's really hard to believe that high school is finished. 5 years of time in SMK Munshi Abdullah. *Blink*Time flies. Back in form 2, I really can't wait for high school to finish. Wishing to leave this school and head to a better one. I wished to break away, spread my wings and fly away. Wished to grow up so badly. Now? Well, I'm no longer that kind of girl. I've grown up.
It's irony. The older you grow, the more you wish to stay as a child. The closer you're with departure, the more you wish you're just starting it.
I'm so close with the departure now. I don't wish to change anything that I've done. I just wish time will pass us by slowly so that we're able to achieve and fulfill our dreams and goals in life.
Now SPM is finished, one of my dreams is accomplished. I really wish I'll score well. Even if I don't score well, so what.. I've tried my very best. So, just let it be..It's really the process that is important. During this torturing period, I realized what is the most important in my life. LOVE and SUPPORTS. I remember the night before my first paper, I was really nervous and crying. My parents and sis were there to support me and give me the strength to carry on. Mom and dad will kiss and hug me in the morning and wish me luck. As for friends, they'll text you and wish you all the best from the bottom of their hearts.
*This is what I cherished the most among this period of time*
Okie dokie, it's midnight now, gotta get some sleep, wish each one of you all the best ^^

Love and Kisses,
Shasha
8/12/09

P/s: Yes..WoooHoo..Yeay~~SPM is finished..It's time to get some fun, honey!!

Diary before SPM

Wow, today is officially ten days away from my SPM!!! I know I shouldn't have logged in, and blogging. But,well, need a break from this life..So, I'm trying escape from my life through blogging for a little short while. Hmm, it's amazing you know, I haven't finish my syllabus yet. Compared to PMR, I think I've finished it month before the exam. It's weird to see how things have changed so drastically. I've been working quite hard starting from last year. Getting the 'Sijil Kecemerlangan' is actually a motivation for me. To motivate me to do better. It does feel good to be confirmed by others about your success. Of course, there's quite a lot of times that I didn't get it.. It's kinda devastating to be honest.I don't know how far is true, maybe it's because I've been pushing myself since last year, and now I'm starting to lose my passion in studies..(OMG..Gotta be kidding!!..It's serious though)

I'm at the point of giving up, but still pushing myself to continue what I've started. This life is mine. This is my life. No one is going to be there to help me for the rest of my life. I have to take control of it..And that's what I'm trying to do..

Hmm, i gotta admit I have problem with time..They seem too little for me..That's the reason why I've been skipping school recently, to study. At the same time, I' having hard time to deal with my inner feelings. Melvin said I've been neglecting friends since I've been skipping school. He said we don't have much time left with them and yet I'm still skipping school. I know he got his point. I feel the same way too to be honest. I'm not perfect, I can't balance between both of it.. And so, sometimes, I chose to neglect my dearly friends by skipping school, and by seeing time past by without them , I does hurt.

I was looking at the paper my classmates wrote to me the other night. They wrote down their contact numbers and some lines which touch me tremendously. I was reading the paper written by our dearly Qinyi. Surprisingly, my tears rolled down upon my cheeks. I was really shocked. His words touched me? I was asking to myself. Well, part of it. I realized that, I was missing his sense of humour, and will always miss that. I was thinking how to survive for the rest of my life without them as my classmates. And I saw what Melvin wrote to me. It's written there' will always call one another. At least once a week' .Yea, I still remember when we made that promise. And I proceed to the next one, one by one. Hmm, I'm really going to miss high school's life.

I'm glad to have a class reunion after this, I can imagine how it goes. :)

Ok, till then..Tata..The next post should be after SPM... Since I'm leaving this blog for quite a while, I'm giving you guys a BIG KISS!!! MUACKS!!! Don't forget to visit me after SPM and STPM guys!!!

BiG kIsSesS fRoM
sha sha^^

Smile :) by Uncle Kracker

A very nice song.
Simple lyrics with a thousand meaning.
Smile guys :)
Enjoy!!

Life 1

Hey guys, as I promised, here I come with this post.

I don't really know what I should write here. I am not running out of things to write. In fact, there's to much to be written out. Where should I start? Many things happened since I'm 'disconnected' with the internet world. Let's start with now:

Life has been pretty hectic lately. Trial, diagnostic test, exercises, add maths!! Seriously, I can barely breathe. Life is getting complicated, complicated, and complicated. Faith and trust seems to fade day by day. How is it possible to go on with life when I'm losing these two important elements. I'm really tired. I'm tired of this and that.

Despite of all those heart-breaking and emotional feelings, I have something else. I have you! Yes, you. I have supports from sis, mom, and papa, and of course my friends. They have been my best medicine and supports.. They are addictive, just like drugs!! They are the one who always keep me motivated especially sis!! *Sab, touch?? lol*

And yea, of course, there's time we broke down, fall, and failed. The most important is to get up and get back on the track. Tomorrow will be a better day. Just hold on to this, and you'll be alright.

p/s: I didn't expect what I've written up here. I thought it would be something very sad, it wasn't want I plan. And yes, I'm shock, how the negative thoughts can turn into this. Mood is swinging 24/7.. lol..

Okie guys, till then, see ya next time:

Xoxo,
Sha

Hey

Sorry for the long silent!!
I promise new post will be coming up very soon..
And I mean very SOON!!!
Till then, toodles :)

Love,
Sha sha

Dawn vs. Dusk

Out of a sudden, just feel like posting a post about this.
I definitely prefer dawn than dusk.
Even though both of them give no big difference from sight view,
Somehow, there's a big, huge difference between them.


Dawn kinda gives me the feeling of hope, rebirth, start of something new..


~Dawn~



While dusk,
Seems to be the end for the day, twilight year, hopeless and alone..


~Dusk~


Sadly,
Both of them are just too short to behold~

Love,
Shasha

One day off

When you read this title, i supposed you know which day I'm talking bout:) It was 2oth of August. ELS organized a trip to Kuala Lumpur. We didn't want to go at first as trial is coming up. Plus the H1N1 case..Somehow, we went because there's too little of us that will be going. And so, we went. It turned out to be quite fine. We managed to snap some photos and went Old Town for our dinner^.^ We went to the art exhibition, Mid Valley, Beryl's Chocolate factory and The Mines..So, here's some photo's that we took:

Awesome painting by Mr. Liew Choong Ching:






Photos with my dearly friends:












That's all for today!!! Peace and have a nice day!!

Love,
Shasha

H1N1

Hey, guys.I have been updating blog quite often lately. Yea. School is closing for one week, 6 days to be exact due to H1N1. I'm not feeling well since last week. So, went to check last week, everything was alright(The doctor said). Then, I starting to feel better and ate a lot of 'garbage'. We bought the Asian type 'French fries' from Koperasi. Oh yea, for two days i think, then worsen the conditions already.

So, we went to checked again yesterday. WHAT THE FISH!! Body temperature is 39 degree. The doctor said' My dear, you have to be very careful, drink lot and lot of water' . Then I was like, ok..That's a little scary...So, after we took the medicine from counter and paid for the bil, we went back..

Before I went to check, I received calls and smses from several friends..Which is very touching..

-As usual sis will call from UM then she'll tell what happened in the U and asked how we're doing.

-Then, Aaron called. Chat..Then somebody was calling him and we hung up..

-Patrick called..She said:Hey sha, how are you, Ming shu said you're not feeling well..See doctor already?Take care' (something like that)

-Then when I was waiting for the doctor, Manda called. She said: 'Sha, are you ok? Aaron told me you're still coughing..Take care.Tell me what the doctor said.. (Again, something like that..lol)

-The Dieh text me: 'Hey dear, how are you now'

After that, I replied them and told them what the doctor said..Then Aaron called again:
Aaron: 'Hey Shah. See the doctor already? How was it?'
Sha: Ok la, haven't die yet..

Then he said he's going to watch movie with Patrick.( I cut out the embarrassing part, Aaron..lol)
So, I talked to Patrick.
Patrick: 'How'?
Sha: Ok i think...Enjoy your movie..

Back to Aaron..

Sha: What time your movie start?
Aaron: 10.30 p.m..Okla..You take care..Have a good rest..
Sha: Ok..Bye

(Those conversations are not complete as I couldn't remember..lol)

I took my medicine..All of a sudden I felt so lonely. Thought of calling
-Ming Shu*Let her rest la, so late already*
-Dieh*She might be sleeping at this time, not a night owl*
-Manda*I think she's spending time with her family*
-Sab*Call her, I'll cry,sob*
-Mel*He didn't reply me sms, might be busy*
-Aaron*Watching movie*
Patrick*Watching movie with Aaron*

So, I didn't call anyone. I listened to Red fm and read 'Diary of a young girl'. I couldn't sleep well. Kinda afraid will never wake up again..

Ok..That's all for today! My friends, thank for those calls and smses. You don't know how much it means to me..Take care~~

Love,
Shasha

Diary of the day

27/07/2009
Monday
Rainy Day

It's 2.10 p.m. I just got back from school about 45 minutes. I had two papers todays..English and Modern maths. It was raining when were doing the modern maths paper.. It was really heavy downpour. RAINING CATS AND DOGS!! Everyone was kinda pissed off, seeing their graph papers getting wet..Those who sat near the windows had to move to the other side a little. However, it was real nice. I mean, the weather is very windy and it got me into the emo emo mood..LOL...

The wind blew, I closed my eyes...
I was trying to feel the tenderness...
Somehow, I'm struggling...
Struggled to feel it..
I failed to feel it..
Perhaps, the burdens were too heavy at that time?
And once,
I tried again..
I could feel a little this time..
I tried for the next few times..
I really felt it this time...
The feeling was really good..
It's beyond words to explain..

So I guess what I'm trying to say is: We have to try. Again, again, and again..Yes, there'll not be instant results..It always take time to see the results. I could feel the calm, serenity, tranquil even though it was thundering and in the middle of the exam(not really good to do that actually, in the middle of the test..lol)..So, be strong.. And pick up the pieces when it all shattered apart..There's always ups and downs in our life..Failure in studies, jobs, families, friendship, relationship.. The only thing that can fix things up is you, yourself..Overcome it, appreciate it, seize it.. Try it, do it with your heart and soul....There's always a miracle..You just have to work it out and keep believing in it...

p/s: Sorry for getting a little bit emotional..Haha..Have to study for the next paper already..If i didn't score for mod maths,well, blame the wind..(Joking lar)Lol...Wish me luck babe~

Love,
Shasha

Here I come!!

I know..I'm sorry!! I didn't update anything for a really long time..Not really in the mood of updating blog. Plus, i'm freaking busy..Ok, so, i'm gonna sum things up for these few months in this post..Here it goes:

We had a chess competition on the 11th of July..I was the MC...XD... It was really hectic as I don't really know the rules and blah blah...So, it was kinda stress..Then, surprisingly, it turned out to be quite ok..(For the first time, consider ok la..Muahaha) Even thought that day was really busy, somehow, I still gained something..Something I would say PRECIOUS and PRICELESS..After the competiton, we stayed back to clear up the mess and take pictures...Oh god, it took FOREVER to get the particular shoot done...Haha..All of us squeezed at the small counter..It was really nice..Oh, after that, before we go back...(There comes the best part) The girls hugged each other...And then, a huge group hug...Oww, I really like it..Then i hugged Dieh..Somehow, it makes me sad that knowing we're going to be apart soon..Compared to the others, the hug lasted for quite long.XD..Kok Seong and Aaron were literally speechless, (i think so) seeing the girls group hugging and making all sorts of odd sounds..LOL..That day ended up pretty late, about 6 something, if i'm not mistaken..

*Rehearsing the MC thingy*


*5 Science 1-2009*



*Dieh and Sha*



* The Gurlz*


*This is the particular shoot*


13th to 14th of July, we went to Motivation Camp at Sg. Rambai, Melaka...Cikgu Ramli drove us there as the buses can't fit in anymore... So, the journey was kinda comfortable..With the air-conditioner and no squeezing.. Ya, pretty nice~Then, they took me hp away, I literally disconnected from the outside world..(I realized i can survive without hp, but not for long..lol) Then, they gave us a talk as usual, then we had a night walk at the jungle at one in the morning..Very insane, but fun indeed..We were covered with mud and sweat..Then, we took our bath around 3.30 in the morning. (OMG infinity) The 'best part' woke up at 7 something...They supplied us 6 meals a day..But still very hungry..


Bad news...My phone had some problems...So, i sent it to re -formate..It really makes me sad because all the messages will be gone..I kept around 800 messages because I have this habit. I'll re-read the messages when i'm free..And then i'll try to re-call what happened that time and i'll be smiling..(I know it sounds weird, but it's nice to do so)!!But now,no..gone!!! Vanished!! Ish!!! Maybe it's time to let go already..Fine, will try to move on..Sob sob..

Oh well..That's basically what happened recently..Don't worry, will always keep you update with the latest news...Till then, see ya..

~Shasha~

L.O.V.E

-SOMETHING ACROSS THE NET
-I think yoi'll like it
-Enjoy


❤❤❤也許愛情是一部憂傷の童話❤❤❤



♂放棄一個很愛你の人 並不痛苦♀
♂放棄一個你很愛の人 那才痛苦♀
♂愛上一個不愛你の人 那是更痛苦♀



♀逃避 不一定躲得過♂
♂面對 不一定最難過♀
♀孤單 不一定不快樂♂
♂得到 不一定能長久♀
♀失去 不一定不再擁有♂



★愛是一種是思念★
ღ無論何時何地 當看不到她/他の時候會想念她/他ღ



★愛也會是一種擔心★
ღ當他/她出事の時候 你會比誰都著急ღ



★愛是一種包容★
ღ你會包容她/他所有の缺點 在你眼裡他/她永遠是最完美のღ



★愛更是一種回憶★
ღ當你想起她/她做出可愛 浪漫の事時 會不知覺の傻笑ღ



★覺得好甜蜜 好甜蜜★
ღ你體會到了嗎 如果沒有就放棄 重新開始吧 祝福你ღ

Inspiration of two

Listen, 聆听
to the song you hear in my heart. 我的心声
Listen,
to the voices that run through my head.

Touch, 触碰
my heart with yours. 我的心灵
Touch,
a girl with your thought.

Feel, 感受
what i'm feeling. 我的感受

Share, 分享
everything with me. 你的所有

and

Hold, 牵起
my hand with yours... 我的手

Then,
I'll be with you, 我愿与你一起
till the very end.. 直到永远ღ.....

p/s:Expression of me and a very best friend of mine, dieh^.^

~First~

I've tried.I've tried to write something more welcoming as this is the first post. Unfortunately, it doesn't turned out that way. Yea, i guess i know the reason. It has been quite a hectic year. But, I won't blame it on exam. This year has been a huge metamorphosis. All the negative one. Gosh, everyone seems sad and depressed. Friendship is shaky, studies is average and terrible at times.. Gosh, what happened.. I thought last year was pretty sucks..This year even worse. Oh dear, I know I should not indulge in this condition. Or else, i'll sink. Sink to the bottom. That's not what I want. It's time, time to get up, pick up the pieces..I know it's never easy but I'll try.....

Ps: Thanks guys for picking me up and the advise..
I like it when we shared our problems that day..
I'll always love you guys~