Diary before SPM

Wow, today is officially ten days away from my SPM!!! I know I shouldn't have logged in, and blogging. But,well, need a break from this life..So, I'm trying escape from my life through blogging for a little short while. Hmm, it's amazing you know, I haven't finish my syllabus yet. Compared to PMR, I think I've finished it month before the exam. It's weird to see how things have changed so drastically. I've been working quite hard starting from last year. Getting the 'Sijil Kecemerlangan' is actually a motivation for me. To motivate me to do better. It does feel good to be confirmed by others about your success. Of course, there's quite a lot of times that I didn't get it.. It's kinda devastating to be honest.I don't know how far is true, maybe it's because I've been pushing myself since last year, and now I'm starting to lose my passion in studies..(OMG..Gotta be kidding!!..It's serious though)

I'm at the point of giving up, but still pushing myself to continue what I've started. This life is mine. This is my life. No one is going to be there to help me for the rest of my life. I have to take control of it..And that's what I'm trying to do..

Hmm, i gotta admit I have problem with time..They seem too little for me..That's the reason why I've been skipping school recently, to study. At the same time, I' having hard time to deal with my inner feelings. Melvin said I've been neglecting friends since I've been skipping school. He said we don't have much time left with them and yet I'm still skipping school. I know he got his point. I feel the same way too to be honest. I'm not perfect, I can't balance between both of it.. And so, sometimes, I chose to neglect my dearly friends by skipping school, and by seeing time past by without them , I does hurt.

I was looking at the paper my classmates wrote to me the other night. They wrote down their contact numbers and some lines which touch me tremendously. I was reading the paper written by our dearly Qinyi. Surprisingly, my tears rolled down upon my cheeks. I was really shocked. His words touched me? I was asking to myself. Well, part of it. I realized that, I was missing his sense of humour, and will always miss that. I was thinking how to survive for the rest of my life without them as my classmates. And I saw what Melvin wrote to me. It's written there' will always call one another. At least once a week' .Yea, I still remember when we made that promise. And I proceed to the next one, one by one. Hmm, I'm really going to miss high school's life.

I'm glad to have a class reunion after this, I can imagine how it goes. :)

Ok, till then..Tata..The next post should be after SPM... Since I'm leaving this blog for quite a while, I'm giving you guys a BIG KISS!!! MUACKS!!! Don't forget to visit me after SPM and STPM guys!!!

BiG kIsSesS fRoM
sha sha^^

Smile :) by Uncle Kracker

A very nice song.
Simple lyrics with a thousand meaning.
Smile guys :)
Enjoy!!

Life 1

Hey guys, as I promised, here I come with this post.

I don't really know what I should write here. I am not running out of things to write. In fact, there's to much to be written out. Where should I start? Many things happened since I'm 'disconnected' with the internet world. Let's start with now:

Life has been pretty hectic lately. Trial, diagnostic test, exercises, add maths!! Seriously, I can barely breathe. Life is getting complicated, complicated, and complicated. Faith and trust seems to fade day by day. How is it possible to go on with life when I'm losing these two important elements. I'm really tired. I'm tired of this and that.

Despite of all those heart-breaking and emotional feelings, I have something else. I have you! Yes, you. I have supports from sis, mom, and papa, and of course my friends. They have been my best medicine and supports.. They are addictive, just like drugs!! They are the one who always keep me motivated especially sis!! *Sab, touch?? lol*

And yea, of course, there's time we broke down, fall, and failed. The most important is to get up and get back on the track. Tomorrow will be a better day. Just hold on to this, and you'll be alright.

p/s: I didn't expect what I've written up here. I thought it would be something very sad, it wasn't want I plan. And yes, I'm shock, how the negative thoughts can turn into this. Mood is swinging 24/7.. lol..

Okie guys, till then, see ya next time:

Xoxo,
Sha

Hey

Sorry for the long silent!!
I promise new post will be coming up very soon..
And I mean very SOON!!!
Till then, toodles :)

Love,
Sha sha

Dawn vs. Dusk

Out of a sudden, just feel like posting a post about this.
I definitely prefer dawn than dusk.
Even though both of them give no big difference from sight view,
Somehow, there's a big, huge difference between them.


Dawn kinda gives me the feeling of hope, rebirth, start of something new..


~Dawn~



While dusk,
Seems to be the end for the day, twilight year, hopeless and alone..


~Dusk~


Sadly,
Both of them are just too short to behold~

Love,
Shasha

One day off

When you read this title, i supposed you know which day I'm talking bout:) It was 2oth of August. ELS organized a trip to Kuala Lumpur. We didn't want to go at first as trial is coming up. Plus the H1N1 case..Somehow, we went because there's too little of us that will be going. And so, we went. It turned out to be quite fine. We managed to snap some photos and went Old Town for our dinner^.^ We went to the art exhibition, Mid Valley, Beryl's Chocolate factory and The Mines..So, here's some photo's that we took:

Awesome painting by Mr. Liew Choong Ching:






Photos with my dearly friends:












That's all for today!!! Peace and have a nice day!!

Love,
Shasha

H1N1

Hey, guys.I have been updating blog quite often lately. Yea. School is closing for one week, 6 days to be exact due to H1N1. I'm not feeling well since last week. So, went to check last week, everything was alright(The doctor said). Then, I starting to feel better and ate a lot of 'garbage'. We bought the Asian type 'French fries' from Koperasi. Oh yea, for two days i think, then worsen the conditions already.

So, we went to checked again yesterday. WHAT THE FISH!! Body temperature is 39 degree. The doctor said' My dear, you have to be very careful, drink lot and lot of water' . Then I was like, ok..That's a little scary...So, after we took the medicine from counter and paid for the bil, we went back..

Before I went to check, I received calls and smses from several friends..Which is very touching..

-As usual sis will call from UM then she'll tell what happened in the U and asked how we're doing.

-Then, Aaron called. Chat..Then somebody was calling him and we hung up..

-Patrick called..She said:Hey sha, how are you, Ming shu said you're not feeling well..See doctor already?Take care' (something like that)

-Then when I was waiting for the doctor, Manda called. She said: 'Sha, are you ok? Aaron told me you're still coughing..Take care.Tell me what the doctor said.. (Again, something like that..lol)

-The Dieh text me: 'Hey dear, how are you now'

After that, I replied them and told them what the doctor said..Then Aaron called again:
Aaron: 'Hey Shah. See the doctor already? How was it?'
Sha: Ok la, haven't die yet..

Then he said he's going to watch movie with Patrick.( I cut out the embarrassing part, Aaron..lol)
So, I talked to Patrick.
Patrick: 'How'?
Sha: Ok i think...Enjoy your movie..

Back to Aaron..

Sha: What time your movie start?
Aaron: 10.30 p.m..Okla..You take care..Have a good rest..
Sha: Ok..Bye

(Those conversations are not complete as I couldn't remember..lol)

I took my medicine..All of a sudden I felt so lonely. Thought of calling
-Ming Shu*Let her rest la, so late already*
-Dieh*She might be sleeping at this time, not a night owl*
-Manda*I think she's spending time with her family*
-Sab*Call her, I'll cry,sob*
-Mel*He didn't reply me sms, might be busy*
-Aaron*Watching movie*
Patrick*Watching movie with Aaron*

So, I didn't call anyone. I listened to Red fm and read 'Diary of a young girl'. I couldn't sleep well. Kinda afraid will never wake up again..

Ok..That's all for today! My friends, thank for those calls and smses. You don't know how much it means to me..Take care~~

Love,
Shasha